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I've realized that I do so much more now that I'm home. I'm all busy living you might say. I started this blog to have a forum to talk about my training, dreams and every day life. Now I actually meet most of the friends I see here (or at least those who comments!)

So I'm letting this go for a while. Got a few writing projects which are not to be published yet. Maybe I'll get back to this immediatly due to abstinence (blogging is fun)...

Thanks for all comments, all kind words and concerns!

C u <3

On SVT Play there's a documentary about D-day, Operation Neptune regarding the landing on Omaha Beach. It's an understatement to say it's awful. I feel something like stomach disease when they show the authentic films. You would thought you would be less sensitive due to modern violent movies and so, but no. Cry like a baby. Human lives are worth nothing - all the efforts the soldiers and their familys have done in their lives before are worth nothing. Education, interests, jobs, personality. Their worries or believes, doesn't matter. One shot is enough and you're gone. It's just so unfair, no weight class or rules! And there's so much effort and resources put into it. Just to blow each other up! And then you turn of SVT Play and the documentary fades away. Everything is nice and silent. Darkness of humanity is going on elsewhere right now and doesn't bother me. Or does it?

Hm, just needed to get that off my mind. Well, tomorrow is BJJ practice and I can't wait. It's like I whish it was in the morning so I didn't have to wait for so long!

Ok, c u!

Yesterday we celebrated Björn's grandmothers birthday. Our gift to her was dinner at our place and a box of nice chocolates. I hope she was pleased about it, I really put a great effort in the dishes with good results! She seemed very happy. We had Björn's mother and Ronny as guests as well. I once again used chipotle and citrus to marinate meat which I then barbequed. With that I served several different salads, tzatsiki, barbequed corn cobs and potato wedges. For dessert I made a chocolate cake using inter alia dark chocolate. If you chop the chocolate and add it after all the other ingredients are mixed togeteher you get chocolate chips in the cake since not all the chocolate melts into the mixture. To give the cake some bite I added a couple of tea spoons of rum. After the dinner I drove Björns grandmother home and me, Björn and his mother took of to a place called Chicago in Stockholm. They servered the most wonderful non alcoholic fruit drinks and a fantastic band played all kinds of jazz and blues. I even got to dance Lindy Hop!!! Björns mother was fantastic, she is born to dance and it was great to watch her shine in her own "element".

This week I got to two sessions of MMA, three sessions of BJJ and one session of thai. The preliminary schedule for next week is BJJ on Monday, thai Tuesday morning, BJJ on Wednesday, thai Thursday morning (maybe BJJ Thursday lunch), running and kettle bell on Friday, Saturday rest and BJJ on Sunday. Good! All approved by Björn <3!!! Hence, I won't do any MMA this week, but all the above mentioned will probably improve my MMA. I felt a bit sad during the BJJ practice today. Sometimes you just don't do as well as you would whish. During those periods it's easy to focus on the bad things. Some guys at another club made a joke (I hope it was...) a while ago infront of the others in the club that I was an exception who actually didn't make any progress in my SW and BJJ. Some times, when my confidence is low and I don't do as well as I demand of my self I think "well, maybe they were right, maybe I'm to stupid for this, it's not for me". You just have to put those thoughts aside and do it again, agian, again and again. It's too fun not to! Nevertheless, it got to me more than I really wanted to admit.

I plan to continue the work with drenching (digging is excellent work out for your back and legs), filling job applications and I also hope to see my dad, Solveig and my sisters this week. If possible I would like to visit my grandmother as well.

Oh, think that's all for now, good night!

Good evening ladies and gentlemen. Here's a little number I tossed off recently in the Caribbean (not)

Today I've celebrated Walpurgis Night (yes, that's the English word for Valborg according to tyda.se?!) We were twelve happy friends having dinner, something nice to drink and lots to talk about. I made tenderloin marinated for 24 hours in chipotle and citrus, sirloin also marinated for 24 hours in garlic. With that, a nice potato salad with red onion, leek, chives, cherry tomatoes, parsley and vinaigrette. Tzatsiki, garlic bread and a green side salad accomplished the dish. Carrot cake for dessert! I loooove carrot cake...

Woow, I'm tired now. Almost bed time, but I can't stop thinking about my MMA and BJJ (for instance, more of that than thai). Working out just makes me feel so alive. Tomorrow is a day for rest, but on Sunday I will hopefully be able to do some BJJ.

I've also found some interesting jobs I'm about to send applications for. I'm hoping my application for the administrative court of appeal will be behold, but the competition is so high... nevertheless, it would be a dream to work there. Oh well, can't do anything about it now.

Sleepy time - good night

Saw the movie "The last Samurai" on TV the other day. The head character Nathan Algren, an American soldier, is captured by samurais and taken to their village from which he can't escape due to the winter. There, he learns their ways and fighting techniques. In one particular scene, he trains with a wooden sword (bokken) against a sword master and some samurais are watching. One samurai called Nobutada tryes to teach him the following.

Nobutada: [after Algren is defeated in fencing practise] Please forgive; too many mind.
Algren: [puzzled] "Too many mind?"
Nobutada: Hai, mind the sword, mind the people watch, mind enemy - -too many mind.
[seriously]
Nobutada: No mind.
Algren: [pretending getting it] No mind.
[returns to training only to be defeated yet again, much to the laughter of Nobutada and his cousin].

A lot can be said about this movie, but that is for another occasion. I just like the above mentioned a lot. It's so typcial! This evening as I was practising BJJ, I thought everything went wrong. I thought I did bad and I worked so slow and thought I had forgot everything! I was very disappointed at my self. Of course the practise was not as bad as I thought. But I was focusing my energy on everything else, on all the "bad things" instead of trying to open my mind, to be empty, to learn. Patience and endurance... Hmm.

Hence, maybe I learned something more today beyond fancy techniques and submissions. Something that will help a lot more on next BJJ session. Maybe even outside BJJ. You could say, it was a very good session today indeed.

We've arrived home after a lovely day - one of my best friends got married! It was wonderful, they were so happy and pretty and soooo in love with each other. Amazing. I got to spend almost the whole day together with some of my dearest friends under such circumstances. I feel very happy. Tired but also excited.



A happy me



Fabolous wedding cake and other goodies made by a friend of the bride


Oh, btw I don't publish pictures of friends without asking for permission, hence the poor collection of pictures...

Kthxbye!!!

I'm surprising Björn this evening with dinner (chillichicken with bulgur, sugar peas, baby tomatoes, beans and youghurt) and mudcake for dessert. A funny movie, some sparkling drink with strawberries makes it perfect!

I want to write a book! How do you do it? I know the story (or stories, got billions in my head). Do you just sit down by the computor and say "wey, now it's book-writing-time"? Hmmm...

Well well, c u!

Oh, btw, looks like I'll be able to compete in at least one BJJ competition before summer. Hooya! I'm so so so HAPPY about it! And this autumn I want to have at least one shooto competition :)

Me and some friends had a bridal shower for another friend today. It went very well, even though we had to change some plans because her little baby got high fever. Nevertheless, we got to spend the day together with her and her son's condition seemed to improve as the day passed.

Her wedding is next week and I actually found a dress the other day. I fell in love with it, think it's very pretty. From BikBok!



I got very tired during the day however and went home earlier than planned. But when I came home I dived into my working clothes and continued with drenching the house. I know, it sounds crazy, but it was relaxing. You get lot of fresh air and your doing something for your self. Working for your self. That is a good feeling. Björn and I have come quite far actually, I think we will be able to install platon and drainage tubes and so on next week. Weeey!



I never thought I would fall in love with a pickaxe, but it's priceless! This is how far we've come in just a few days.


Spring is in the air and everything is waiting to burst out into blooming. And the birds are certainly enjoying themselves now, due to all the noice they make :) Here are some random pictures of feelgood.


Blue anemortes are so pretty...



Yummy!



Pontus likes to use my hand as a pillow...


I long for tomorrows BJJ practice. I think both Björn and I have abstinence. He lifted me up while laying on his back, using his feet on my hips. Then he made some knee bends and gave me a kiss every time he bent his knees. Haha, I whish work out alway was like that! :D Erh, with Björn of course. Anything else would be wierd. :P

When I moved home I think I became fanatic about restoring house. We're now doing the last itteh bitteh things in the basement so we started to drench (I think the word is) around the house. In just two days we have dug almost everything alongside the west side of the house. Feels good. Good excercise too, I guess.

Work out has been good this week and fun. Feel a bit tired now though, even though I have no reason to. Since I've moved home and work out six times a week instead of eight to eleven times a week I feel like I never should be tired anymore, hehe.

Anyways, I've got a problem. A huuuuuge problem. A dear friend of mine is getting married next weekend. And I need something to wear! Damn it, I've tried like thousand dresses and none of them felt good. Hopefully I'll find something soon. I've got one white and two black dresses, maybe that ain't the right colours to wear on a wedding?

Have you seen this guy btw? He is so cool, in this song he is like nine years old. And the rythm is beat box, completely. Very nice unn-tss! :)

Lil Vicous - Freaks

Fabolous Saturday. I've cleaned, done the laundry (or most of it) and we've changed tyres on the car and washed it. Now it's time to relax and doing something not-necessary! Play computor games or something.

Yesterday was spent with my sisters! <3 They're the best. And Patrizia came along as we where in the Muffin Bakery! Yummy :9 The evening was spent at home with Björn, Patrizia and Sofie. I was supposed to go out dancing but it ended up with me staying home. Just didn't feel good about my self. :/

It's so so so good to be home though. I didn't realize how much I lived in a  suitcase even though I had an appartment in Vänersborg. I've not yet realized that I'm not actually going back... o_O

Before I came home I said to my self I should take a break from everything. Except I don't actually wanna take a break from MMA/BJJ/thai... it's to fun! Five workouts this week. I have just one left, not allowed to do more. But it's enough, enough to make me happy.

Two of my friends from Strike BC are just about to have shooto fights in Nyköping. Simon Rosenholm is one of them, dreaming of becoming a professional fighter. This is his first fight. I just whish him all the fun in the world. He works so hard, making his body perfect for this particular thing. Fight. And he is hungry... Robing (H)Arding is also about to compete, but he has done this alot. And no matter how it goes (his one words-isch) he will still be pretty. I guess Patrizia sighs loudly at this. Sensei P is there with them however, supporting and coaching our fighters.

I wanna fight tooooo! And I will, just not right now, a bit later.

My last shooto fight is on kimura.se under Shoot Challenge 6, del 2. My fight begins at 2.05. I damn my self for that poor take down in which I give up my back for Anny and she get's me on a RNC. But at least I tried to take it to the ground as well. I guess I learned something and it's just for fun. Keep on smiling, looking forward to the next fight.

First things first however, now it's relax time. Tomorrow it's BJJ practice! :D And I think I've figured somethings out that will help me alot.

Shooo, c u!

Weeey! Ooooeeeyyy! I'm hoooommeee!

I feel very happy, my actual first day of my vacation. The sun is shining, melting away heaven's mistake from yesterday (yapp, it snowed) and everything feels good.

Easter started of with 2010's first barbeque. Home made burgers with Patrizia, her sister and Robin. Day after that, dinner at my dad's place. Lots of good food, candy and presents, mm-mmmm! Got to spend the afternoon and evening with my family - all my sister where there! <3

On Sunday I and Björn participated in a BJJ-seminar by Arnela Hadzisulejmanovic. She is just one of the greatest persons you can meet. Not only is she one of the best in BJJ/SW, but also very educational making all the moves and techniques seem very easy. She is precise with the details making sure everything she teaches will actually work for real in sparring and competition. And she's also so nice and enthusiastic that you just keep smiling all the time. I bet you learn much better feeling so happy about what you do.

Yesterday had room for some more BJJ and even thai sparring :D


Well, gonna keep on with the vacation now, c u!

Snart snart snart går flytten till Stockholm. Bara åtta dagar kvar. Jag kommer hem så sent på kvällarna (typ 23.15) pga. träning och pendling till dess att jag bara hinner skutta ner i sängen för att sova tills det är dags att skutta upp igen vid 06.00 senast. 

Så jag tar ett litet brejk från bloggandet. När jag kommer hem ska jag ha semester. Det ska bli skönt.

Hörs snart!

Oh, glömde - skriver ju på engelska.
...

Takin a break from my blog etc. due to late BJJ/MMA practice combined with my last week at the administrative court. Next week I'm ending my service with a leave that I've saved. Very nice. Looking forward to it.

C u!

Hooya, got to do some BJJ today. So funny, OMG! All the worries come off and you just focus on that particular thing/technique, letting adrenalin and everything fill up the system. Nice.

Björn is making progress towards becoming a blue belt in BJJ. Damn, he is good and developing so fast. I'm very proud. He was totally worn out after the sparring, they were so hard on him! Johan and Gaude took turns on the sparring (got more skills, experience/higher grades than Björn). I got scared when I saw him after the sparring - I couldn't get in touch with him at first. But after some rest, water and sugar he was fine. He got his third grade on the belt! The trainers said that it was the toughest third-grade-graduation ever in the club. I believe them!

Just wanna finnish with saying how much I love dad, Solveig and my sisters. Thanks for always being there.

In my apartment in Vänersborg doing... not much. Had a super efficient day at work though, really proud of what I produced! I've also had two hearings of my own last week and this week and they both went very well. Did the last fixes of the last judgement today. When your about to put your own name on a judgement, you read it like ten thousand times in order to make it perfect. To do right. Hopefully I'll be able to have one, two or three additional hearings before the end of my practice. Practice makes perfect.

However I got a cold and I can feel it down my lungs! Hurts bad when I cough :( Felt a bit tired on Monday but thought it was nothing, went to BJJ practice and voilá - sick. But I might as well do this now and get immune :) I mean, with this much rest, training is going to be awesome and fun next week or maybe as soon as Sunday!

In about two weeks a friend of mine at Strike BC, Ewonne "Tiny Terror" Ahlberg, is entering the ring for a fight á la Muay Thai! I'm looking forward to it, I wanna see her own the ring and the fight, because it's hers. Just wanna see her shine and have loads of fun. No matter how the fight ends, all she has to do is shine. It's a win-win situation. She is awesome. Nice nick btw, Ewo-Awesome!

One should not forget all the work she did for the women of martial arts by arranging Girls Night Out together with Jenny Krigsman and Peter Ejderby. It was awesome. There, behind the scenes, was Ewo, hard working in the silence, stubborn as I guess only she can be with making it perfect. I think I forgot to tell her how good she was. So I do it now, like almost ten months later.

Better late then never?!

It's barely three weeks left of my practice at the administrative court. Hard to believe that it's been one and a half year already. And some days it feels like I've done this forever, thinking of all the packing and traveling. How much I've missed my family and friends.

 

I never thought I would be able to do this practice though. The competition for the few posts are high. I remember me thinking by the first year of studies at the university; “No, that's not for me, I won't be able to get grades good enough to claim a post. Besides the studies I have to work too!” I'd heard people saying that you needed AB's in each class as well as other merits like additional studies etc (AB is the highest grade). Not very clever of me to give up already before I'd even started, but I did it! And now I'm almost ready. Me and Björn are still together and even though I've been several miles away from home, my family and friends have always been close, always supporting me.

 

The last week was stressful though. It takes some time for a new court with over 200 employees to get settled. A bit different from Vänersborg where we were totally 35 employees! I won't go on about the details, but the situation was so that I didn't make it to my MMA/BJJ classes. Björn thought I should rest after work instead, due to the signals my body was giving me, and I know he was right even though I didn't want to listen to him in the beginning (thx, Så Trasig for the support btw...)

 

Tried to relax as much as possible this weekend to. Lots of good sleep, good food and cozy hugs. Nevertheless, I think one particular event channelized all my stress from the week (and since I only worked out once last week, the adrenaline was still there in some way). I had bought me a hoodie a couple of weeks ago and thought I should wear it. However, a couple of minutes after I took it on, I managed to make it dirty by leaning against a pair of sooty work gloves while I was doing some make up. A bit annoyed, I washed it and hanged it on a chair to dry. The next morning I thought “well now I can wear that cozy hoodie of mine!” As I took it from the chair I noticed that the colour of the chair had reacted in some way, making spots on the hoodie where it had hung. I looked at it for a few seconds, feeling something picking inside of me, then striking with no mercy with the force of a diving jet plane ready to fire.

 

“DAMN YOU, YOU UTTER FOOL OF A FUZZY HOODIE! YOU HAVE CHALLENGED ME AND I SHALL FIGHT YOU AND STRANGLE YOU TO DEATH! UNTIL YOU DIE FROM IT!!! YAAAARRRR!!! ¤/&"#E"#¤"¤(&"#!½½!!!!”

 

… It's just a sweater... But very safe to be angry with. I never killed it though, just washed it a second time, not hanging it to dry on a chair this time. I think we will actually be able to live happily ever after together.

 

Sensei P then sent me the best news ever. He has fixed private lessons for me in SW with Arnela, my idol when it comes to grappling. I almost can't believe it and look forward to it so much! I can't believe he has done this for me and I'm so happy! Afterwards I think I told Björn about it about ten thousand times. Jumping around like a fool. But he is happy for me. And I'm soooo swanky and pleased about this *lol* Thousand million trillion cazillion thanks Sensei P! <3